I am a very lucky man. I have a loving and supportive family, and the best friends that anyone could ever wish for. I have a social life as busy as I can cope with, and I get asked to do lots of very exciting things. My days are never predictable and to a degree, health and hospital appointments permitting, I can do what I feel like doing, when I feel like doing it. Unfortunately that doesn’t include foreign holidays, as I don’t feel I have the energy to take that on just yet.
For the last 5 years, cancer has dominated my life. For the first part of that, it wasn’t my choice. It took me down like a bolt of lightening and before I knew it, I was enveloped in the physical, psychological and emotional feelings that I wasn’t prepared for. How to deal with all the things that were coming at me, I just didn’t have a clue. I made it up as I went along. It was a bit like one of those computer games where each stage you reach there are suprises coming at you from all directions. you cannot plan, as you don’t know what is going to be happening.
I didn’t even think about how I would earn money if I was well enough to ever work again. Maybe I should have started some form of informal training that might lead me to a paid role.Too late anyway, to worry what I should have done. So where do I go from here? I really don’t want to retire at all. I have no desire to sit back and take things easy. Will I ever be well enough to work again, who knows.I am aware that my main concern is my health and without that nothing else matters. So I guess that until I am in the position of being well enough for long enough, I shouldn’t start thinking about it. But I do!!!
So, whether or not I should be, I am still wondering what I will do as paid employment in the future. What is my worth in todays job market?? If I was in good health I’m not sure what my value would be, let alone now. But I’m not quite ready for the bin just yet so we will see what the future holds. In truth I shouldn’t be here now, so should I be suprised at what happens next?
Would you really like to give up work given the choice?? I think we all need some of that routine that work brings us. What do you think???
Interesting stuff and really got me thinking, I really enjoy the lack of structure now I am not working and even swapped some of my gym classes because I felt they were adding too much routine to my week . But then when I did work full time I was temp/free lance because I have never been able to cope with too structured a day . I say that to David its being on a train . I supose with the things i fill my day with and writing/painting/home/creating I need to be more flexible any way . Thank you for for lovely wise words and for getting my brain working . Claire x
Thanks for your comments Claire.Everyone is different and that’s what makes life interesting! You always have a lot going on which is great.I do too, but I think I’m a person that needs structure.
I’m glad you are enjoying the blog. It certainly makes me think, even as I am writing it!! watch out for todays post!!